Okay. Long productive day is done. Took care of my kids, went to the gym, fed them dinner, helped with homework, played on the floor...bath time, story time, prayer time...sleeping time. And, "I have so much to do now." I'm such a Mom.
So, I'm done with preparing for tomorrow. Yet I can't turn off today.
Some people just surprise me. I don't understand. Man, I just want to shake my head (and fist) at some folks. I'm really close to my church family...but some of them, honestly...I don't think I'd want to say hi to them on the street. Ouch. That's wrong, huh? What kind of terrible person am I? God instructed....demanded that I love everyone. But it's so hard. Some people are just knuckleheads. I could give so many examples here. For example Jane. I've known Jane for years. Jane has had a lot of drama in her life. But I've always heard her out. She would call me at all hours of the night...just to talk, pray...or vent. I always supported Jane. If she asked me for an sip, I'd pour her a glass....if she asked for a shirt, I'd give her a wardrobe. It was that kind of friendship. Granted, she never returned the friendship...as in, she never did much for me. But I never asked, nor did I do things expecting her to repay it to me. But, I knew that she only reached out to me when she needed me. I was okay with that. I wanted to bless her. But the last year has been hard. It seems like Jane hasn't grown up at all. I can't talk to her on a more intellectual level because I never know what kind of mood she's in. Will she laugh, get mad, snap at me, or blow me off? I have to walk on eggshells around her. I don't like that at all. But, I continue. So, my question is this...what is the stopping point? Where do I draw the line and say "okay, no more." The last blow up was ugly. It involved several other people and my child witnessed it. That alone is enough for me to get real crazy...I wanted to get in my car and go tell someone about themselves. But...that's not who I am. Nor will I become that person either.
I feel like my area of relating to people is not good. Just today...someone tried to trash talk about my church family on Facebook. Something about....I posted a prayer request and no one commented on it, or clicked the LIKE button....my church family has let me down...boo-hoo.... Okay, I've exaggerated...a little, just the boo-hoo part. But seriously, COME ON. Is this the Body of Christ? Are we now relying on FB to prove whether or not we are praying for one another? RIDICULOUS. Anyway, I commented...oh, you bet it did. I just said, "hey, just cause we didn't comment or click LIKE, doesn't mean we didn't see it or didn't pray; lots of folks just don't leave their 'mark' on FB, or maybe they were bathing kids when you posted (like me)." Anyway...I guess I left a bad taste in her mouth cause she deleted me as a friend. Hmm. Just like that....BOOM....division is created in the church. Wow. Is this really how church is gonna be from now on? Eggshells and FB Prayer Requests? Ugh. I think I might fulfill my childhood dream and become a missionary in China...just to escape this madness.
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Hey Damaris,
ReplyDeleteI just want to encourage you. I just want you to know that I count knowing you, your parents, your whole family to be one of the God given blessings of my life.
I realized, somewhat after the fact, that something I wrote in one of my blogs could have been offensive to you. I hope it wasn't. Certainly offense was never intended. But, if it was, would you forgive me?
I treasure the time Deborah and I spend living next door to your parents, watching you and your siblings grow into solid, Biblically based adults. Don't let any one get you down. Just hold on to Jesus and everything will come out right.
One of the problems that I've noticed with Facebook (and the Internet in general) is that it is a breeding ground for passive-aggressiveness. The anonymity that it provides produces exactly what you've written here. Sad.
ReplyDeleteIt's also sad that someone claiming to be a Christian has/is responding the way that they are. There are people that you should be able to count on and fellow church members fall into that group. We're not always perfect, but the Bible calls us unto a different perfection that what the world knows or sees.
Like Dad said, don't let'em get you down. Come out the better person, and honestly, the line has been drawn for you.